What?
Whatever. I'm in the worst mood. EVERRRR. I swear its the birth control pills. My mood keeps switching from extremely irritable to weirdly happy.
And Elian isn't making it any better. He doesn't answer my texts anymore, and he doesn't answer when I call (not like I call much).....
Maybe he needs a dose of his own damn medicine..
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
If My Man Was Fighting
Some unholy war.
Idk what I'd do haha. Hmm so I'm going to train myself to have him not come over so often. Or at least if he comes over, not to have sex with him... because he's going to get bored with me.
And I'll explain that to him tonight.
When he comes over. Hahaha. Gosh I need to really work on that because I want our relationship to have real longevity! Like my first real relationship!
Forreals yo.
Well waayyy. School was bunk. Like I thought. I'll actually try to look nice though tomorrow. Anyways.. I'm going to go read and then discreetly get ready.
:) Adios
"he said lets leave this between you and me"
Idk what I'd do haha. Hmm so I'm going to train myself to have him not come over so often. Or at least if he comes over, not to have sex with him... because he's going to get bored with me.
And I'll explain that to him tonight.
When he comes over. Hahaha. Gosh I need to really work on that because I want our relationship to have real longevity! Like my first real relationship!
Forreals yo.
Well waayyy. School was bunk. Like I thought. I'll actually try to look nice though tomorrow. Anyways.. I'm going to go read and then discreetly get ready.
:) Adios
"he said lets leave this between you and me"
Sunday, January 27, 2008
I Don't Need School Tomorrow
I mean cmon do I?
Forreal. Gimme a break.
Thank god for February 11th.
Except that I'll have a doctors appointment?
Goin steady.
Forreal. Gimme a break.
Thank god for February 11th.
Except that I'll have a doctors appointment?
Goin steady.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
I Wonder If You're Looking Up
"From underneath someone who is... everything that I'm not."
OMGsh this week SUCKED. I mean work work work! Thats all I did! And well okay. Me and Elian are boyfriend and girlfriend. Briana think's he's a clinger. I think its adorable... like the way he acts and everything. Idk. Me gusta.
SUPERBOWLNEXTWEEKEND!
I'm excited. I loveee footballl love it love it love it. Forreals.
Anyways. I guess I'd better continue waiting for him to eventually get over here?
Adios.
OMGsh this week SUCKED. I mean work work work! Thats all I did! And well okay. Me and Elian are boyfriend and girlfriend. Briana think's he's a clinger. I think its adorable... like the way he acts and everything. Idk. Me gusta.
SUPERBOWLNEXTWEEKEND!
I'm excited. I loveee footballl love it love it love it. Forreals.
Anyways. I guess I'd better continue waiting for him to eventually get over here?
Adios.
Monday, January 21, 2008
We Decide To Go Out Walking
Hope time, that we're talking.
You keep me on my toes..
Where did the time go?
Sooo Saturday was great. I mean yess... I did kind of let us go too far, but I was really into Elian. I liked him a lot. And he's a great sexer. Like.....
THE BEST EVER
Perhaps.
Yes. Soo. We drank. I did like five shots and wasn't completely wasted... but I was pretty damn wasted. I remember things though! I just kind of wish I hadn't have had sex with him because I want us to be together and have sex... you know? Like.. uncommited sex isn't for me anymore. So.... I'm not having sex with him again until I'm his girlfriend. And if he doesn't like that... well..
Oh well I guess? That would totally be his loss. I'd be sad, but I can't like put my morals down the toilet just because he doesn't want to commit to me.
That's me being a little smarter about my choices... Except afterwards.. because apparently he was asking me to be his girlfriend Saturday night (he spoke to Briana). But Sunday when he was over here, I was just trying ot make sure, you know? And idk... it just didn't seem right?
Idk. Anyways Jamie says I need to make sure.. of like where we stand. So I will.
Adios!
You keep me on my toes..
Where did the time go?
Sooo Saturday was great. I mean yess... I did kind of let us go too far, but I was really into Elian. I liked him a lot. And he's a great sexer. Like.....
THE BEST EVER
Perhaps.
Yes. Soo. We drank. I did like five shots and wasn't completely wasted... but I was pretty damn wasted. I remember things though! I just kind of wish I hadn't have had sex with him because I want us to be together and have sex... you know? Like.. uncommited sex isn't for me anymore. So.... I'm not having sex with him again until I'm his girlfriend. And if he doesn't like that... well..
Oh well I guess? That would totally be his loss. I'd be sad, but I can't like put my morals down the toilet just because he doesn't want to commit to me.
That's me being a little smarter about my choices... Except afterwards.. because apparently he was asking me to be his girlfriend Saturday night (he spoke to Briana). But Sunday when he was over here, I was just trying ot make sure, you know? And idk... it just didn't seem right?
Idk. Anyways Jamie says I need to make sure.. of like where we stand. So I will.
Adios!
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Freaking Outtt!
Elian's phone is turned off. Not like... cut off not like the service is off..
He's got the phone actually turned off...
I'm praying he's just sleeping? I mean he wouldn't just.... like avoid cancelling with me for tonight by turning his phone off.. would he?
That'd be fucked up.
He's got the phone actually turned off...
I'm praying he's just sleeping? I mean he wouldn't just.... like avoid cancelling with me for tonight by turning his phone off.. would he?
That'd be fucked up.
Love .... Is Supposed To Be A Losing Hand?
Self professed.... profound.
I know you're a gambling man.....
Love...... is a losing hand...
I suppose. My week has absolutely SUCKED up to Thursday afternoon. I mean.. yeah I got into an argument with my mom yesterday about her being hardheaded and wanting to WALK all the way to 75. I said it was waaaay too cold. And that it's not as if I'm not sick at all. So then I called this cab thing and then all of a sudden, LaToya called and wanted to take us to we made a day of it.
Starting with IHOP. Haha.
Sooo my mom's a doll. She paid for my glasses, bought me a cellphone and has given me like sixty bucks. Twenty of which I spent last night. Briana didn't bring adequate money with her to paid for her movie. I ended up paying for the both of us... And its a lot more expensive than going on a Tuesday afternoon.
I'm kind of nervous for tonight though. It's like a total excited nervous though. I really enjoyed Elian's company Thursday night, so it should be pretty nice. I mean I get to get out of the house. Be with a really HOT guy who seems to like me... and drink. So of course it should be cool. I just really hope he doesn't try anything that will tarnish my current views of him. I mean... Thursday, he didn't try anything, I just didn't want to kiss him that much since we don't really know each other that well.
Haha... I kinda feel bad too, because he's paying for the majority of everything. I only have like almost $40 left. Lol.
But yeah, he totally doesn't have to get anything really hard. I mean Mikes Hard Lemonade and Smirnoff would do me in, so it doesn't really matter. Haha drinks are drinks.
THANK GOD ITS THE WEEKEND.
[a four day weekend!]
I know you're a gambling man.....
Love...... is a losing hand...
I suppose. My week has absolutely SUCKED up to Thursday afternoon. I mean.. yeah I got into an argument with my mom yesterday about her being hardheaded and wanting to WALK all the way to 75. I said it was waaaay too cold. And that it's not as if I'm not sick at all. So then I called this cab thing and then all of a sudden, LaToya called and wanted to take us to we made a day of it.
Starting with IHOP. Haha.
Sooo my mom's a doll. She paid for my glasses, bought me a cellphone and has given me like sixty bucks. Twenty of which I spent last night. Briana didn't bring adequate money with her to paid for her movie. I ended up paying for the both of us... And its a lot more expensive than going on a Tuesday afternoon.
I'm kind of nervous for tonight though. It's like a total excited nervous though. I really enjoyed Elian's company Thursday night, so it should be pretty nice. I mean I get to get out of the house. Be with a really HOT guy who seems to like me... and drink. So of course it should be cool. I just really hope he doesn't try anything that will tarnish my current views of him. I mean... Thursday, he didn't try anything, I just didn't want to kiss him that much since we don't really know each other that well.
Haha... I kinda feel bad too, because he's paying for the majority of everything. I only have like almost $40 left. Lol.
But yeah, he totally doesn't have to get anything really hard. I mean Mikes Hard Lemonade and Smirnoff would do me in, so it doesn't really matter. Haha drinks are drinks.
THANK GOD ITS THE WEEKEND.
[a four day weekend!]
Monday, January 14, 2008
No Matter Which Way You Go
I was walking with a ghost. I said pleasseee.. Please don't insist.
:)
I love tegan and sara.
Ughh bus tomorrow?
Yay.
Umm yeah I'm sick. From Briana! It's not a happy time.. but I'm making the best of it!
This weekend? Elian and alcohol? Hopefully good times. I'm hoping this works out well.
:)
:)
I love tegan and sara.
Ughh bus tomorrow?
Yay.
Umm yeah I'm sick. From Briana! It's not a happy time.. but I'm making the best of it!
This weekend? Elian and alcohol? Hopefully good times. I'm hoping this works out well.
:)
Thursday, January 10, 2008
I know I know I know
You'll always love me too....
It's me and You.
I had the weirdest dream. I was like in love with this boy, and we couldn't compromise on things or something like that.. I wanted my way in everything, and we broke up and it was horrible.
I think before we "broke up" things were good though. Really cute!
Anyways my weeks really sucking. I missed the bus today, and I had an english essay to write for my exam. Soooo I really don't know what I'm going to do.
I'll figure it out I suppose.
It's me and You.
I had the weirdest dream. I was like in love with this boy, and we couldn't compromise on things or something like that.. I wanted my way in everything, and we broke up and it was horrible.
I think before we "broke up" things were good though. Really cute!
Anyways my weeks really sucking. I missed the bus today, and I had an english essay to write for my exam. Soooo I really don't know what I'm going to do.
I'll figure it out I suppose.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Yeah!!!
Yeah, yeah, yeah yeah...
YEAH.
Haha that was ghey.
Week's SUCKED. This week has been atrocious. Seriously. Haha but... apparently, this guy, Elian, wants to hang out over her next Friday.
Hmmm.. let's see me explain that to mom. Hopefully she works late sooooo yeah. I'll wait til Wednesday I guess. I'm really not sure how that's going to turn out.
Anyways.... Schoooll tomorrow. Back again. Omg I do not want to go. It's gayy. But my fortune cookie said that I will have good luck in traveling to the east.
UMMM where do I go to school? EASTTTSIIIDEEE
hahaha awesome.
Wonder what that goodluck'll be?
I'm washing clothes... I'm gnna nap.
Adiosss
YEAH.
Haha that was ghey.
Week's SUCKED. This week has been atrocious. Seriously. Haha but... apparently, this guy, Elian, wants to hang out over her next Friday.
Hmmm.. let's see me explain that to mom. Hopefully she works late sooooo yeah. I'll wait til Wednesday I guess. I'm really not sure how that's going to turn out.
Anyways.... Schoooll tomorrow. Back again. Omg I do not want to go. It's gayy. But my fortune cookie said that I will have good luck in traveling to the east.
UMMM where do I go to school? EASTTTSIIIDEEE
hahaha awesome.
Wonder what that goodluck'll be?
I'm washing clothes... I'm gnna nap.
Adiosss
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
La Guerra
Haha I won't type any lyrics for this song. It's in spanish and I don't really know them very well.
This year is going to be my year of experimentation. I'm going to have as much fun as I possibly can, while trying to maintain the morals that I DO have.
It's a whole new year! I'm so excited for what's to come!!!!
Forreals homie.
Goals:::::
-Concert
-Fashion
-University [find out, apply, etc]
-Become more at one with myself
-Become more at one with friends, family
-Keep at least a 3.5 GPA
-Be nicer, but not passive
-Meet a lot of new, cool people
-Try new things
-Finally get a new computer
-Explore my sexuality
-Get my lip pierced
-Date the Races [white, black, hispanic]
-Like my boobs
This year is going to be my year of experimentation. I'm going to have as much fun as I possibly can, while trying to maintain the morals that I DO have.
It's a whole new year! I'm so excited for what's to come!!!!
Forreals homie.
Goals:::::
-Concert
-Fashion
-University [find out, apply, etc]
-Become more at one with myself
-Become more at one with friends, family
-Keep at least a 3.5 GPA
-Be nicer, but not passive
-Meet a lot of new, cool people
-Try new things
-Finally get a new computer
-Explore my sexuality
-Get my lip pierced
-Date the Races [white, black, hispanic]
-Like my boobs
-AND NUMBER ONE [CAR!!!!!!]
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