BoomCAT

Lol...

Worked todayyy 9-3 ish.
Came home and laid my ass downnn.

I was tired from hanging out at Bob Woodruff and in the parking lot w/ Christian. He's an interesting boyyy.
I wish he'd just ask me out though. And stop second guessing everything.

Hm!
And I officially realize, it doesn't matter whether I feel left out or not... it's not going to change anything... so I might as well stop caring that I don't get invited everywhere with Briana and Leah.
I just want to do the same thing back to them. I already got Leah that day at lunch.. she wanted to come..
Hmmmm.

Mickey Avalon

Call me Mister Rightttt.

Briana got into a car accident. With some random indian lady. She's upset. Of course. I knew whenever she got into an accident it would be when I wasn't with her.
Hm. But she and Leah are okay! Sooo goood goood!
Next subject...
Christian.
I likeeeeee him. We kissed last night. For a little while.
I like him alott.
NEXT.
School.
It's funnn. Haha very entertaining. Feels like I never left. Apparently I got meaner.
It's whateverrr. They still love me. ALMOST all of the whole group is together. Minus Shamaya and Sarah!
How depressing.
:*(
WORK!
Is difficult.... but sometimes fun and should be worth it when I get my first check next friday.
I hope I get it next friday.
:) I'm sure I do.. they didnt tell me I wouldn't.
Anyways... going to the park w/ Christian!
Goodnight!

Ugh.

Okay. Yeah I don't have a ride now.
Darnit!
:(

Fall Into A Place That I Dont Think A Child Should Know

And I'm screaming out a name that should never pass my lips.
Poisonnn in my veinnnsss.
:)

School is great( and just started today). Work is work (good cause it's money). I've got a ride home from school! For $50 bi weekly from Dozie!
I'm happy. :D

I'd Rather Feel Pain Than Nothing At All.

Worrrrrk.
Thank god for Briana Marie cause it's raining cats and dogs.

G.

...L...A...M...O...R...O...U..S

The Glamorous.
:) Flossy Flossy.

Umm the past couple days have been busyyy kinda. Yesterday Pammmm came into town. She came to get me and we're hanging out today as long as I don't work (I doubt I will apparently no schedule til Wednesdays). Got my schedule. It's fineee. NO PHYSICS.
Hell yeahhhhhh. Lol. IPC and Algebra though.
Oh well. WHATEVERRRR.
:) I'll pass. I passed chemistry. I'll just pay better attention.
I'm just excited to get the year over with and PASS.

Night before last I went with that guy JJ that Me Briana and Leah met at TCabana. He's nicee.
Belal''s an ass as always. I'm pretty used to it by now. His ass was like can I come to the hospital and we have sex there? Wtffff?
Yeaah so.... life's good.
And I UPGRADED MY PHONE.
Hopefully I'll get it by Friday-Saturday.
:D

Cold As Cold As Cold Can Be

Into the ocean end it all.

Me and Mariana are fine. She just got busy or whateveerrrr.
It's whatever.
Sooo Orientation tomorrow. After Schedule Pickup. And more damn pictures for my damn ID. And then maybe going to the hospital... I'm not sure. I have to call Renata........................


Hm. Damnit. I should've done that earlier. Oh well.
At leasst I got to get out of the house today and have dinner w/ Briana!

Situation's Unbearable

You're not ready, you're not ready... please stop acting like you are.
Devotion and Desire- Bayside.

Sooooo. Mariana isn't answering my texts or phone calls. And I have no idea why. I did absolutely nothing to that girl. I wish she'd build a fucking bridge sometimes and get the hell over herself and it. Half the time when she's mad at me it's not even that big of a deal. She's sooo damn stubborn. I kind of do want to know what "I did".

Hm.
Whatever. Lol.
I went to meet Edwina or Shannon [or Stephanie as my MOM told me] this morning... and apparently no one bothered to let me know that her schedule had been changed.... so I have to go back between 2 and 3.
Grrreat. Haha and now it's super hot outside. And the sun's back.
:( Today's going to be a good day whether it's started off badly or not.

My Sacrifice.

Creeeeed.

Soooooo I got the McD's job.
Hopefully I can juggle it and school and theatre.
:) Let's pray.

I'm Going To Shoot Myself In The Face If Someone Doesn't Cheer Me Up.

:\

I look sooo fucking good right now, all I'd have to do is change my clothes and I could go out.
I need at least an hour out of this houseee.
Or some really hard liquorrrrr.

Fuck.

Everything right now. I'm in a really bad mood.

Mostly because Belal doesn't reply to ANYTHING I send to him and it's really frustrating. I don't understand why people can't just be civil to other people. If you didn't want anything to do with my after we had sex, then why don't you just fucking say something?
Soooo dumb. So dumb.

And me sitting on my ass in this house is NOT helping.
Not helping at all. Since I'm just keeping my mother company. IF I don't get out of this house for at least an hour tonight I swear I'm going to go crazy.


Fucking crazy.

We Bring Ourselves Down

And shoot down the stars for our enjoyment.

Sooo sexy we are. Soo sexy we are we just don't know it.

Ilgymclassheroes!

Ummm last night wuzzzz interesting. :)
Belal came by and we went to the park.
It was aamazinggggggg.
He's smart! Condoms!

AND I spoke ot Garrett's nice ass friend Anthony. Overall... between 2 and 4 yesterday morning was the highlight of my fucking week.
Besides getting my phone bck.
Lol!

Party Pa Party Party

Where my party people at?

Wowwww "adults" are sooo dumb sometimes. Latoya seriously needs to get a bitch check. She's all in-like with Garrett, who doesn't like her.
She's fucking dumb. At least if I'm having sex with someone I would KNOW that they didn't really like me.
She's in fucking DENIAL.
Bamf.
:)

CrushCrushCrush

If you wanna play it like a game,
Well cmon cmon let's play.
:)

I'm fasting until Thursday.
My body is going to be a little more amazing when I go back to school.

Which by the way I'm a little scared about becauseeeeeeee... Mr Elms emailed all the Techies and auditions for the first play start the week school starts.

Don't they think that's a little overwhelming? Yaaah. I think so. But whatever. I might try to get my mind in order and just try out for Footloose.
We'll see. But I'm going to try and get some hours in when I'm done with classes, etc.

Yeast Infections

This website said pregnant women are prone to yeast infections.....
I'm pretty sure I have one and I DID have unprotected (somewhat) sex with Garrett.

Well the date was July 23rd.

I'm going MIA if I don't get my period in the next week.

Le Disko

I don't hate you...
I just don't exactly like you.


You don't HAVE to like your parents or family. That's something I've learned over the past couple years.
I don't HATE anyone. I just don't like her. She's not fair. So when, IF I even find out that I get this damn job (McDonalds) since she won't let me have my phone to see if they call, I'm getting a phone in MY name. Therefore she CANNOT take it because I pay for it.
There you go. BITCCCHHHH.

I really don't like her. She should've tried harder to not get pregnant if it's soo difficult to have me around. I should just leave.

My Life Is A Black Abyss.

My family's disgusted with me. And I can honestly say I don't give a fuck.
I really don't right now.


Sooo it's whatever.

To my Mom and From my Mom to Me.

Okay... I really need to get this off my chest.
1) I am not you, I won't make the same mistakes.
2) I am 18 and feel like I should get the freedom I deserve because if I don't I won't EVER grow up.

I know what happened whenever you went off and had your fun. Thats why I'm here. But you don't understand (even though for some reason EVERY other adult I know, and even ones that don't know me well, besides Pam sees it) that I'm not a dumb kid. I'm pretty freakin smart, I just don't like to be shut up in the house. That makes me want to break out and just leave. Which of course I've told you I've contemplated before.
When Renata said I could stay with her, she told me her rules.
1 is that she didn't want to come home to unknown people in her house
2 she'd want to know I'm alive most of the time
3 i'd have to have a part time job, etc

And about the job thing, I WAS looking, so I wish you'd stop making me out to be the bad guy that isn't looking for employment.
What happened last night was NOT my fault and I shouldn't be blamed for it. I told you I had nothing to do with it and you even heard him since you spoke to him, he was doing his own damn thing. I told you that. Yet I'm the one being punished. So no, I'm not going to be a happy camper. And no I'm not going to want to talk to you while I'm being punished for something that isn't my fault. Basically, I'm being punished for wanting to be an adult and have fun, because I don't have a car, and because my friend didn't thoroughly understand one o'clock.
So it wasn't my fault. And that's pretty much all I have to say because talking to you wouldn't make any difference whatsoever.

--- On Fri, 8/1/08, Gwendolyn Tyler <gwendolyntyler469@yahoo.com> wrote:
From: Gwendolyn Tyler
Subject: I am through!!!
To: "Erin tyler" <nikki4818@yahoo.com>
Date: Friday, August 1, 2008, 2:20 AM

Erin i want to start this leter of by saying that I love with you with all my heart and soul.. But i am very pissed off at you tonight... i told you when i let you go out tonite I didn't want a repeat of when you went to go see Danity Kane.. But here we are again .. i am up at 2am when i should be sleep getting to get ready for work..Instead I am waiting for you to get hm safely.. Over this summer you have had your fun and not thought about the consequences of your actions when you mess up.. And i have overlooked them so that you wouldn't be mad at me well i am done.. And i don't care whether you get made at me or not.. I know this is your Senior Year and that you are 18!!! But in life there are concesquences to the actions that we do whether it be good or bad.. Anything that I tell you i tell you from the heart and most of the time i have already been through it and i don't want you to go through the same mistakes i had to find out the hard way..