Staying!

This weekend is supposed to be amazing.
Idk if it will be! But I'm sure gonna try!

Ending Today=Better Than Weekend.

Fasho.

I'm tired, but I've gotta study vocab and I wish I could see my huny bear.
:(

Count to Ten...

Today was a really bad day.

Like everytime I think about what happened, I kind of want to cry.
Me and Briana's friendship is probably never going to be the same.


So oh well. I don't know what else I can do.

That Kinzell kid was getting all agitated because she brought me, and I answered him back and he just got more angry from there. The more angry he got, the more I got and he kept cursing me out... calling me a "bitch" and a "hoe".
She just sat there and once asked him to stop.

Wtf? If some guy I liked, or even just some random person we were with started getting pissed with her I'd shut that person up. Shut the fuck up or get the hell out of my car.

So I don't really know what to do.
Oh well I guess?

Bye.

Love Pull Your Sari Down

I will pull your tangles out.

I'm mad. I'm really craving alcohol... and my mom said no.
:(!

This weekend's going to suck as much as the rest of my weekends have this month aren't they?


Yes, It Is.

I Hate That Stupid Old Pickup Truck; You Never Let Me Drive

You redneck heartbreak who's really bad at at lying.

Haha I love that girll... I forget her name. She's my callertone. Haha.

Soooo yeah I saw Eli for the first time in over a week yesterday. It was pretty swell. I guess.
Yeah I don't have anything else to say so I'm going to go try dying these extensions and if that doesn't work I'll just perm my hair.

:)

Room Spillin In

And I wake up alone.
I'm actually not sad. I'd feel a lot better if my head wasn't aching! Mrs. Thompson says it's probably from like caffeine withdrawals basically. I definitely wouldn't doubt iit. I don't drink dr pepper as often as usually...
Yup.
:/

Hmm Eli?
Yes.
Well we spoke yesterday because I suggested that it was important. Apparently he got a little scared. Haha. I was getting pissed because I called him and he didn't answer but he did call back. I told him I was getting frustrated and didn't know what to do. He explained that he's been really tired and trying to get over his "Flu". Idk about it. Don't really care anymore. I'm just not letting myself get too upset about anything.

Don't really wanna talk about Briana moving either.

Soo yeah!

Last Week Was Horrible.

I mean.. I know I was walking around pretending like everything was fine, but as soon as I realized I was playing myself, things went waaaay downhill.

I mean I freakin cried on Valentine's Day! Who does that??? Well I did.
It was pretty bad.

And Briana's mad at the whole Elian subject because she doesn't think he's worth my time. But I mean I do like him even though I wish I could switch out his actions for someone else's. I don't know who's.. but someone who actually does things for me.. and makes an effort in our relationship, instead of just coasting as if "she'll be just fine". That she is me, and No. I'm not fine. Mhm.
I called him Friday since I hadn't heard from him, and he hadn't called like he said he would later on Valentine's Night when he "got back from dinner with his mother". He didn't answer. I think I called twice.. once when me and Briana were around Stonebriar, and once in the car. Both I got no answer. I had Briana call from her phone at Stonebriar and GUESS WHAT? He answered. Haha that's horrible! I had her hangup though. And I had her do it again when we were out near Taco Cabana and Starbucks, and she was like asking him questions and I was like "tell him I said hey". Haha and she said, "Ohh hey, your GIRLFRIEND says hey." Haha. He was like What? I thought it was hilariously sad. Briana was pissed. And I spoke to him and was pretty much blowing him off (which of course, was a front for me). I was just pretty much over him playing around and I said I guess I would call him later. He kept asking if I was mad. "You're mad at me aren't you?" "You never believe me."

What the fuck? He gives me these insane lies that he expects me to believe and then I do..
Because I'm just like almost every woman I know. I can't just drop someone I have feelings for until I'm seriously over and done with it.

And I'm not ready to be over and done with him.
So I really don't know what to do. Because I know the next time I speak to him, he's going to sweet talking me with the "I miss yous" and "I wish I was there with yous" and I'm going to take the bait like those dumbass fish I used to catch when I was fourteen.
And complaining about it isn't doing much good. It just relieves me a little bit that I'm acknowledging these facts.

So, please god, let me have a good week?
:)

I Wanna Hold Your Hand.

:(

MMHM!

Everything's going good.. In my circle!
Besides that Briana says she's lost her ... well idk what she called it but she like pretty much lost her "groove". She can't get guys that she messes around with to stick around. Haha.
Anddd... Jamie and her guy broke up.
:(

Me and Elian are going strong.
:)

Amor Mio!

Labios compartidos!!
Haha....

Soo tonight me, Briana, Jay, and Tashia went to The Magic Time Machine for dinner and ate and etc. We were pretending like it was my birthday and it was fun. Jay was kind of an asshole, but I didn't expect anything different! :)
Last night my mom woke up. Haha I was scared as shit.
But otherwise, me and Eli are doing fairly well. I mean... yeah I guess. We don't really do anything besides have sex, talk, and watch tv......
Soo jahhh man. I mean I can't complain. At least until after Valentine's Day.
:P

Anyways.. I'm tired sooo adios!

Bed!

Bed,,,, bed.
Built a wall of books b/t us in our bed.
I JUST WANT BACK IN YOUR HEADD.

Wowwww me and Elian are still together! Wowwww right? I'm totally amazed too. Briana and Jeremy got back together for like... basically a week? Maybe almost two weeks? It was pointless and a waste of both of their time. I don't mean to be like.. well idk.
Anywaysss.

I'm going to get him to take me someplace in the next week or so. I mean Valentine's Day isss coming up! I really don't want to be disappointed or anything.. so yeah.

We'll see? Anyways this week of school is totally unnecessary. So mmmyeah!
BTW: I'm a freakin beast. Last night I had some homework, I took my hair down AND spent time with Eli.

Damnn I'm amazing.