Once again, I didn't do anything, and I get cursed out but some fat arse who I don't even know all that well.Well betch, you better go on somewhere because no one did shit to you, and now I'm all torn up over nothing and everything.I'm tired of everything and nearly everyone right now..I give up.
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Everybody Wants To Rule The World

I'm in a really good mood right now. :)

HAPPYHAPPYJOYJOY.
Sry.
Anways me and Jon=great
Me and friends=grreeatt.
Me=grrreatt
ADIOS
:)

I Need A New Life.

If you aren't going to answer my calls then why the hell don't you just tell me to bug off?
Don't be a big bitch about it babe.
Seriously, it's annoying.
So yeah I don't know. As much as I say I really don't care anymore, I know I do, and no matter how many times I say I'm not desperate, it's a lie because I feel a yearning to feel like someone's everything.. or someone's something[!!!] at all.
It's just really hard not really having anyone besides friends to depend on and love.
I really shouldn't need that.
I can't help it though.
So whatever.
Why the hell am I always depressed on Sunday nights?
Fuck.

Everybody's Workin For The Weekend

Haha not really. Well Jon is.
Yeah I'm still talking to him. To my, and I'm sure, Briana's surprise lol.
David started a lot of shit. He should've kept his mouth shut like he said he would. I don't really care right now, I'm not in any sort of commitment or whatever, so it doesn't really matter... as long as I don't get hurt.
Lol last night Briana's mom made us drinks. It was grrrrreeat.
Anoche.. El (Jon) estaba hablando ... de cosas interesantes. Quiere que nosotros vamos a estar juntos.. Como juntos en un apartamento.
Yeah I was like "whaaaat are you serious?" Haha.
I told him he was acting as if he's my boyfriend or something and he said well thats because I am. Haha.
So obviously, I'm still "seeing".

I Was Born.. Long Ago.

Work Quick Sing Slow.
I feel bad.. kinda. I just really am starting to think I'm pretty desperate to replace the emptiness.
& it hurts!!!
Alot!
So I went and hung out with Jon for the first time ever. He's pretty nice and everything, but he's still a little... I guess you could say erotic.
I'm going on a diet. It'll help me feel better.
He did make me feel prettier though.
"You're too pretty to smoke"
"You're so beautiful."
Etc.
He wants to know more about me before he even talks/thinks/whatever about a relationship or whatever.
I've HONESTLY never been in a really real relationship, so I don't know how long that takes.
Maybe two or three more times seeing each other I guess.
But I'm pretty sure we're hanging out again next weekend sometime.
Oh yeyuh. Almost forgot, I also met Steven and Holly. They're cute. Steven's kind of crazy though and they've got three kids.
So Yeah. I don't really know honestly what the heck I'm doing.
I guess we'll just wait it out and see.