I Really Do Hate Her Today.

I hate her for everything she's done to me. Everything she's put me through and all because shes a big selfish bitch.
I hate herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Soo much.
I'm a fucking teenager who's about to be a freaking adult. I DESERVE to have my own life and go to my OWN FUCKING BIRTHDAY PARTY
omg it's soo frustrating.
I feel like going to my bathroom and drowning myself in the tub.
I need to get out of hereeee.
Really bad.
So I'm asking Renata if she's not busy, if I can stay over her house this weekend.
I cannot stay here. It's either her house, or one of my friends.
But I know that if I stay at her house, I'll be spilling my guts about everything she's been doing.
That includes:
1) Taking the day off work to go "visit" a man she doesn't know.
2) Sending money to some guy she met on the internet in North or South Carolina (I was THERE so I know)
3) Taking all the anger that guy from N. or S. Carolina out on me.

If she's going to have these weird ass relationships with people she doesn't know, I don't want to be around.
So since I barely see her during the week, I need to get out of this fucking house on weekends. I'm tired of being around her.
And by the way, I need to be getting a job soon, because I'm moving out when I turn 18. No, I won't be finished with high school, but I can't stand it here anymore.